Saw her again. Yesterday two questions raised to my mind and i've understood that maybe 
we can go out as group like this winter, but if we got the girls with us it'll be more fuckin 
difficult... It'd be a lot more easier to stop going out when she's around or ask to not call her
 anymore. But the first is like suicide and the second, i cannot ask anyone to not see 
anymore a person just because i can't see her without feeling like a shit. 
The questions: wouldn't it be much and much better if I act like Emilio did and i decide to 
ignore her? I asked her to remain my friend because i didn't want to lose her completely 
or i really wanted her beside me, in every way she could be with me?
Second question: do i now suffer because i lost her or i lost the idea of her as my girlfriend? 
Yesterday I gave her a quick look and I felt nothing. Maybe a little sadness, because in 
a certain way I've lost her. Do I miss the idea or her?
And what the hell she's up to? Yesterday i caught her whispering something like 
"i'll tell it to the other when it'll be time" and I read some sms like that one... 
Is she dating someone else? And who is this guy? I really hope he's someone i don't know,
 it'll be too hard to deal with her going out with a friend of mine... Emilio was fuckin right,
 it's just too hard, to see her with someone else you know, even if you don't like her anymore.
 I'm sure that in a month or two i'll read or think again this and i'll laugh, because everything will fade away, 
but now it's just so hard... I haven't spoken for a single minute with her yesterday... 
I'm not helping that much in keeping our "friendship" alive...